Luke Freeman

Finished writing my Cambridge application last night now I have to get my hands on a printer/ink, mine’s all out! Well, all I wanted to say is that it was an interesting experience having to write down things like my career goals etc… kinda very reflective… especially since I still have only very vague ideas of where I am headed.

So, here it is… this morning was the first time I cried this year. That now makes it 8 or something since I was younger.

I received an long, abusive message from someone I that I thought cared about me and understood me. It cut right to the heart of me. But all I can seem to do is be polite.

I’m sick of people judging other people, especially if they don’t know the facts.

I just don’t see why people intentionally hurt others.

But when it comes down to it, I finally realised that I deserve to be loved, and nothing could make …

I was thinking earlier tonight that the most annoying person to me in the whole entire world is myself.

This is true inasmuch as every time I realise that I am annoying, hurtful, or letting someone down it drives me up the wall. I think it gets to me too much. My nature, upbringing and several key events have shaped me in ways that I am still not entirely happy with - even the things I like have sides to them that drive me up the wall.

I’ve accepted who I am, and learned to still love myself, warts and all. But …

Well, after a bit of a break since my EuroTrip, you can start to guess that I’m back blogging again… well at least trying too

I have been sending off emails to people that I would like to interview for my Honours, and am getting some great responses a lot of the people that I really wanted are already responding!

There is a lot of work that I need to get done at the moment, so I’m trying to get to that a bit more successfully!

Things are going great with my lovely lady too, so I couldn’t be much happier …

Yeah… I’ve got it good.

…real good.

Okay, back to work now.

I think one of my biggest weaknesses is how much I love feeling appreciated. It’s the one thing that I need to constantly remind myself that it is my problem, otherwise it would be easy to feel hurt when I don’t feel like I’m appreciated, or a priority.

Still, I have to be careful and accept that it is important to me. I’ve had relationships (friendships, romantic and business) turn sour because I put in a whole heap of work and people get used to it, expect it and don’t appreciate it enough.

Yet another way that I have learned more about …

Ahh!! I just got an email from Mark (former rowing coach at Mosman) and he said I need to write an application for Cambridge ASAP! Because he wants to get it in for the 2009 deadline!

So many applications and papers are popping out everywhere at the moment!

This one’s kinda exciting, but completely jumps right into the middle of my plans for the next 18 months! If I do get accepted, I’ll need to sort out funding (after paying for my Honours at SFU) and it may mean that I don’t get back home for a while ;( — it may …

Well, just a quick note: from where I’m standing…life looks great, the future, however unknown, is exciting!

Was just walking back from Joni’s when one of my favourite songs came on my iPod…

“Invincible” by Muse

Follow through
Make your dreams come true
Don’t give up the fight
You will be alright
‘Cause there’s no one like you in the universe

Don’t be afraid
What your mind conceives
You should make a stand
Stand up for what you believe
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we’re invincible

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Let’s use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We …

Okay, here’s more that I didn’t update on last night.

Well, I stopped rugby pretty soon after starting because I realised that it is not worth the high chance of becoming a paraplegic ;( - rowing over here is basically screwed. I’m not sure I’m that enthusiastic after I was kinda stuffed around by them. I still love the sport but I think it may not be the right time and place for me to be on the water at the moment. (also being really flat out with uni, letting that take the reins for a bit)
We’re thinking MONTREAL NEXT SUMMER!! …

Sorry its been ages since my last post, things have been full on over here

Currently I’m doing 17cp at SFU including my honours project!

I’m graduating this spring and after that I have no idea what I’m doing. I grew the stones to bring it up with Joni last night and we had a really good chat, about everything really. Man, I’m lucky with that girl - soon it’ll be a year that we’ve been together, wow!

We talked about the fact that we’re both graduating and making plans for the future and the reality of the moment is, however …