4thApril

Juno

I just watched Juno today whilst doing research for my paper.

There was one scene that really hit me. The whole concept of divorce, when she is confronted by it and says to her dad “I just need to know if it’s possible for two people to stay happy together forever”

Man that hit me… I could never imagine ever getting married and not being in it for the long haul, “til death do us part,” I just don’t know if I could ever leave someone, or let it get to that point. I don’t understand the concept of getting married and “falling out of love” — don’t people understand that euphoria isn’t meant to last forever? The whole point is that you are meant to get it right the first time. Man, that is scary.

I really look forward to dedicating the rest of my life making someone the happiest person in the world, one of the things that I eagerly await is raising wonderful children (not in any measurable way, they are “wonderful” just because they are and I will be privileged enough to love them).

But that is some serious responsibility there, I couldn’t imaging letting my kids have a broken family, it would honestly break my heart.

I also loved the quote from Juno’s step-mother when she saw the adopted mother with the baby in her hands for the first time: “you look like a new mother… scared shitless.”

All that being said, I am still plenty young with my life ahead of me, there is just so much responsibility. But my job isn’t actually to get it all right. My job is to do the best I can with what I have and to be honest and consistent with my character.

Still, knowing full well that I’m not going to rush things, it is still a pretty exciting, however scary, prospect — being with the person you love forever, growing together, living life and sharing in the experience of raising and loving children.

That’s my [rather full on] thoughts for today :P

4thApril

Simple enough!

“All propaganda or popularization involves a putting of the complex into the simple, but such a move is instantly not constructive. For if the complex can be put into the simple, then it cannot be as complex as it seemed in the first place; and if the simple can be an adequate medium of such complexity, then it cannot after all be as simple as all that.”

1stApril

The truth…

I’m on my way to england… right now… I just got a standby ticket at the airport! Au revoir! Seriously… who needs to graduate! I’ll come home when I come home… it could be a while though, probably head straight to canada!